Recently I seem more irritated with life than I normally do. Yea, I can be a real crab at times. I can’t seem to find one particular thing that has me aggravated, but there seems to be a general discontent in my soul. This troubles me greatly. Normally I’m an optimistic and happy person.
A few weeks ago I was listening to a message about the plans the Lord has for each one of us. The pastor brought out many great points about how the Lord uses the circumstances of life as one of the many ways He guides us along the path. As he developed the message, he quoted a statement a friend made to him several years ago, “The only thing harder than waiting on God is wishing you had.” Read that statement again and let it sink in…
Testing, testing, is this thing on?! I don’t remember exactly where I heard that statement for the first time, but I can relate it to our current life situation. Sometimes things just don’t seem to go right, no matter what you do. The odds are against you, your out of talent, money and time and there is nothing anyone can do to make whatever it is you are trying to accomplish happen.
This morning, I read this devotional I wrote 4 years ago. At the time we had 1 team and streamed about 40 events a year. We now have 4 teams and stream 60-70 races a year. What I have found is the enemy is consistent in his attacks and the doubts he places in your mind about the calling on your life. What the Lord reminds me is He is faithful and has brought us through every trial and circumstance.
“The LORD has kept me from having children. Go, sleep with my maidservant; perhaps I can build a family through her” (Gen 16:2).
No one is better at convincing me I should do something than me. I could get it in my head that this is the direction I need to go and there would be very little that could convince me NOT to do something once I had made up my mind. That led to me buy things I did not need to impress people I did not know with money I did not have. The result was a debt that I am just climbing out of 16 years later.