The Anguish of Faith
Today is the beginning of a new era for our company. We head off to Memphis to set up unit 2 for it’s first use in full production. This is a time of great hope for our future. It’s also a time of deep fear. It’s hard to believe that those 2 things, hope and fear, can occupy the same space at exactly the same time, but they do today.
The last few months have been a faith walk as the Lord guided our steps. At times it seemed like sheer madness and others absolute genius. After this weekend, nothing will ever be the same. The Lord continues to stretch us, showing us the path and lighting the way. I hold on to Him like a small child clutches to his father’s leg on a crowded street.
I’m not concerned with our abilities or that something might go wrong…this is streaming, stuff happens all the time. I wonder if I’ve thought of everything? Will we need to make the midnight Walmart run because we forgot the $.50 widget? Doubt creeps in at every step…the enemy fights me all the way…it can only mean I’m on track with the Lord’s plan.
The 2nd unit is called His majesty… Psalm 145:5 They will speak of the glorious splendor of your majesty, and I will meditate on your wonderful works. I serve an awesome God, I am amazed at His grace, mercy and love for His children. His plane is perfect, to Him goes all the glory.
The Anguish of Faith
by Os Hillman
“Do not hide Your face from me or I will be like those who go down to the pit.” – Psalm 143:7b
Of all the biblical characters, David gives us a glimpse of a man who walked with God with great emotion in victory and in defeat. David never lost a battle throughout his many years of serving as king of Israel. In many of the Psalms, David often lamented about the difficult places where God had placed him. He talked of his enemies and the need for God to deliver him. He talked of God’s everlasting love for him. How do you suppose David came to this understanding after years of being sought after by King Saul who wanted to take his life? His years of turmoil within his family gave him many reasons to lose all hope in a loving God.
David often began his Psalms in a place of discouragement and loss of hope. But he never ended one Psalm in defeat. He always came to a place of victory in God by the end of the Psalm. David always placed his life in God’s hands, knowing He would care for him.
Let the morning bring me word of Your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in You. Show me the way I should go, for to You I lift up my soul. Rescue me from my enemies, O Lord, for I hide myself in You. Teach me to do Your will, for You are my God; may Your good Spirit lead me on level ground (Psalm 143:8-10).
It is okay to feel discouragement. It is part of the process of grieving and working through those times of pain. But God wants each of us to allow Him to walk with us in these places. If you find yourself in one of these places, do what David did. Ask God to show you the way and let Him bring the word of His unfailing love to you.