When Insecurity Turns Evil
For a variety of reasons, I had big trust issues prior to my surrender to the Lord. I was afraid of not having enough…enough, food, enough money, enough stuff and especially not enough love. My insecurity lead me to be the captain of my own destiny. I would do what it took to secure my own happiness…whatever it took. I played by my rules and as long as I didn’t get caught, it was all good.
Instead of holding to the standards I was raised with, I set out on my own to grasp all I could posses. Don’t get me wrong, I wasn’t an ax murder or anything like that and by today’s low standards for civility, integrity and general lack of conscience, I’d be considered a success. However, I was not a good person. I was as phony as a three dollar bill.
When we started the business, we had one thing, trust in our Lord. Up to that point, He had lead us with a steady hand of love, ensuring all of our needs where met. I knew He had my best interest at heart. My trust and love for Him has become even deeper over the last year. I’ve watched Him lead us to places I could only begin to imagine we’d be. I no longer concern myself with gathering material possession, He supplies everything. There is true peace in my life.
I think I’m finally starting to understand what John wrote in 1 John 2: 15-17, “15 Do not love the world or anything in the world. If anyone loves the world, love for the Father is not in them. 16 For everything in the world—the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life—comes not from the Father but from the world. 17 The world and its desires pass away, but whoever does the will of God lives forever.”
Need to trust again? I highly recommend you lean on the Lord, He will not let you down.
When Insecurity Turns Evil
by Os Hillman
Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn. Romans 12:15
Saul was the King of Israel. David was in Saul’s army and beginning to build a reputation as a great warrior. One day when David came back from a battle, the women danced and sang: ” ‘Saul has slain his thousands, and David his tens of thousands’ ” (1 Sam. 18:7).
Saul was very angry; this refrain galled him. “They have credited David with tens of thousands,” he thought, “but me with only thousands. What more can he get but the kingdom?” (1 Samuel 18:8)
This statement caused something to snap in King Saul. From this point on, Saul was never the leader God intended him to be. He allowed insecurity to drive his every decision. Insecurity leads to the need to control people and circumstances. The need to control leads to anger once we realize we are unable to control the circumstance. King Saul could not accept, much less rejoice, over David’s success. David’s life would never be the same, because Saul sought to kill David every chance he had. Saul had a choice; he could have seen David as an up-and-coming general in his army who could have become an important part of his team and made the kingdom of Israel even stronger. Instead, he looked at him as a threat. When you hear good news about fellow workers or associates, do you rejoice with them? If you find yourself comparing your life’s circumstances to others and don’t feel you measure up, recognize that this is one of satan’s greatest ploys to destroy you.
Christ has given you all things in Him. He has a unique plan for you that cannot be compared to another. He alone is your security. Trust in the purposes He has for your life. And remember, “My God shall supply all your need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus” (Phil. 4:19 KJV).