“So letting your sinful nature control your mind leads to death. But letting the Spirit control your mind leads to life and peace.” -Romans 8:6
When you’re waiting for God’s timing, the enemy will work his hardest to bring doubt and condemnation into your mind. This is the place I find myself today, struggling with the ‘what ifs’ of tomorrow compounded by the ‘what dids’ of yesterday. The enemy will use the truths of your past to condemn you.
There are days I’d rather be off doing something different with my life. Something that would allow me some leisure time, the ability to make more money, have a few more days off and heck, maybe race my car that’s sitting in storage. But that is not His plan for us at this point in life. Instead we have chosen to embrace this place He has us and do what He has called us to do, be an example of His grace and mercy in our community.
There are times when those around me, in Christendom and the business world, are basking in great success while we toil away day after day, month after month, year after year in what seems like relative obscurity. There are times when I wonder if there is any lasting impact from our efforts. If it sounds like I’m a little jealous of others success, I am. Not green with envy kind of jealous, but a deep reflection on what real difference we are making as we walk the path He has laid before us. When I start to feel this way, the Lord is quick to show me the influence we’ve had in both worlds.
By far, this has been the strangest off season we’ve had since we started our business. At times it seems as if all we’ve been doing is wandering around with no direction. We know that is not true. Every season of life has a purpose, even if we are not sure what that purpose might be.
Been there done that…how many times have you heard someone say that? I wrestled with our Lord on many issues over the years. Everything from how I wanted to live my life to my dependency on the world for all of my needs. While I’d like to say I was a quick study, that simply was not the case. Hard headedness seems to be in my nature…yep, rebellious plain and simple.